jughead.

you know archie comics? i love those. i used to spend all my money on archie comics and a bottle of ginger ale, then i'd just read them over and over and over and over. so yesterday i decided to buy one. just for old time's sake. i didn't realize how much i missed it. 

all week i've been thinking about when i was younger. (like junior high to junior year of high school.) i was just thinking about how i used to buy a lot of candy and eat it all day. at least in high school i was always running around, and i always shared with other people. but i remember this guy in my english class, junior year. coolest guy i knew back then. one day he was just like, "you eat candy like, every day. how are you not fat? i swear, if i ate as much candy as you, i'd gain like twenty pounds." at the time, i really didn't care. of course, i was also wearing dog collars to school and giving free tarot card readings, so i didn't really care about much. but just thinking back to that, i cut back on candy really quickly. even last semester, i always had a lollipop, even if i wasn't eating it. now sugar scares me.

yesterday, i was watching this silly video with owl girl and it was like, a musical activity. so you're supposed to stand up and like, dance and whatever. there was this horribly fat girl in the video who stayed seated for the entire song. and owl girl was like, "ugh, check out that fat girl." suddenly, i was really happy i hadn't eaten yet. and later in the day, i was sitting with my friend and we were talking about-- well, she was talking about-- dieting. and i was like, "what, do you want twig legs or something?" and then this really cool girl popped up out of nowhere and she had dreads and she said she was visiting a friend and she was from california and she was just like jmjnjbhydzsdf SO COOL. and my friend goes, "well, yeah. like that girl." (i found out that girl's name was tuesday. made me think of a series of unfortunate events.) 

WAIT I GOT SO OFF TOPIC.

okay, jughead. archie comics. yes. jughead eats like a monster. he has a food obsession. but he's amazingly skinny. absolutely love him.

.......

now i have nothing to say about him. damn it. 

WHATEVER. he's awesome. check him out.

ah, i'm going running with the pirate today. (afternoon, sometime. maybe.) i'd rather ride a stationary bike in the fitness center, though. i don't want to get all sweaty before my other classes. but whatever. i feel more motivated to actually get toned instead of just losing weight. (and i can't even do yoga in the living room anymore, 'cause my sister is always watching tv.) i know the pirate keeps telling people she thinks she's fat and she wants to lose forty pounds. (and i guess, i keep telling you guys that...) so i figure, at the very least, she could use an exercising buddy. and we're gonna play at a few open mics soon. i don't know.

i still have absolutely no motivation to do anything, but at least i'm showering regularly. (seriously. no joke.)

i wrote on my mirror in dry erase, my weight goal and thinspo quotes. my sister saw it, i think. and my mom. i don't think they care anymore. cheers! speaking of weight, i'm still one-twenty five, even though i haven't been eating. it's probably because i haven't been moving much either. or drinking enough water. (lame.)

i can't wait to get back to one hundred and seventeen pounds. that was fun.

oh, i remember now. i wish i had jughead's metabolism.

honestly.