damn. damn. damn.

i didn't plan ahead. i should have had a list of things to do in case of emergency.

i could have really used one yesterday, like what to do in case your mother spends the entire day chiseling away at your self-image and self-esteem or what to do in case people touch you when you didn't give them permission to. so naturally, since emotional roller-coasters tend to make me as tired as staying awake for over 24 hours does, i went to sleep. (well, that's the end of that. for now.)

lousy mitochondria and their damn ATP.

on a brighter note, i turned into a real bitch because i hadn't slept. and by bitch, i mean i stopped filtering (the things i wanted to say, not the crap that just flies out on occasion) and really "let people have it". i've learned that people don't like it when you don't listen to them. and they especially don't like it when you talk to them the way they talk to you-- like they're idiots. oh well.

i've got so much work to do today, i'm almost glad i got some sleep.

my glasses broke last week. and then my mother got sick, so i told her let's not go get my new glasses just yet. as everyone knows, a car is just a glorified petri dish if you're stuck inside one with a sick person for any amount of time. it's a bad idea. then she got better. but today (the only day this week that i have available for going anywhere to get new specs) she's driving to a whole other state for some baby shower or whatever. long story short, being without glasses this long is really giving me a massive headache. which also really wore me down.

i still hate sleep though.

honestly.