happy anniversary, i suppose.

i looked in a mirror, for the first time in a while. i've got bags under my eyes that would make fester addams jealous. my skin is pallid, due to a lack of sunlight. i haven't looked like this since i was fifteen. back then, i did pretty much the same things i'm doing now. i stayed indoors during the day, emerging only at night. i slept very little. the only differences between now and then are that i'm reading novels instead of comic books, and i practice the guitar instead of the piano. if this keeps up, by the time this month is over, i'll be howling at moon, getting reacquainted with my old friend edgar allen poe, and i'll probably have cut myself off from other people entirely.

at any rate, it's been a year here. thank you. for being as amused with my life as i am, for not being completely disgusted with me, and for even bothering to cheer me up when i needed it. i don't always write what's on my mind, but when i do, you accept it. possibly. or you don't read it, which is still a small mercy in itself. either way, i'm touched.

while i don't lie to people i know, i'm not as honest with them as i am here. it's nice to get all this off of my chest from time to time. i had another blog once... but a teacher found it by accident and the fear shocked me into silence. oddly, he's one of my favorite people, and there was nothing truly personal on it, so it shouldn't have bothered me as much as it did. plus, if i ever got around to talking to someone i knew, he'd probably be at the top of the list. (also, he wrote an encyclopedia, which is a direct product of him being awesome. who DOES that?) anyway, i'm glad i can blog here. banana is the only person who knows i have a blog that i actually update regularly, and even she isn't allowed to read this.

although disney completely ruined notre dame de paris (as films inspired by literature usually end up), the hunchback of notre dame was a good movie. you know that scene, where quasimodo lifts esmeralda's body into the air while he frantically screams, "sanctuary! sanctuary!" this is my sanctuary.



Rayya said...

awwh happy anniversary - or blogiversary :)glad to be here, i love reading your posts you are an excellent writer and you always leave me in giggles <3

who actually does write an encyclopedia though ? thats crazy.. pretty immense cos he must know everything in the encyclopedia :\ wow im blown away.. few of my lecturers write books (conveiently they happen to be the core texts for their particular subject area and they MAKE YOU BUY THEIR BOOKS) I however am not impressed with them, I generally think they are just losers who have too much time on their hands and are just looking to make a quick buck off poor students.. But this guys something else, I enjoy encyclopedias they always amaze me.

<3 Lots of love xx

Depressed Skinny Mess. said...

Happy anniversary!! Im glad you are still blogging :) This is my sanctuary too, where we can let go and talk about anything! This place will forver be a place to hide away from the world <3

Anonymous said...

Happy anniversaryyy!
Yay, I love reading your posts. I'll tell you that, every post, n_n

Anonymous said...

Happy anniversary! I'm fairly new to your blog, but blogger is my sanctuary too. I don't lie to people I know either, but I can't tell them the things I write on here. It's nice not to be alone anymore :)
Alice xx

jackie said...

I love to read your blog, it's a bright spot in my day :) I know what you're going through isn't always easy, but you have a knack for bringing humor to darker situations. I admire that.

wherever you are, whoever you are outside of this blog world, thanks for being missinsanity here.


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