8.09.2011

to eat or not to eat.

this is odd for me. but anyway, today i woke up and weighed myself and (damn those cookies!) i was not happy. so i didn't have breakfast. then i went out to the volunteering thing, which ends on saturday- FINALLY- and didn't eat lunch. i came home and i feel like i should at least drink something with nutrients in it... like soup. but the scale is haunting me. it's right outside my bedroom door. i can just hear it now.

"one pound... one pound..."

toss in some rattling chains and you've got a pretty good idea of what i'm going through right now. the main thing is, i planned to start the water fast tomorrow. if i don't eat today and only drink water, i'll be starting a day early. which isn't bad, but the timing is totally wrong. see, if i've heard correctly, the worst hunger pangs are on the third day. which means on friday, i would've had it the hardest. which would be just fine with me. but if i start today, day three becomes thursday- the day i register for classes.

i don't want to sit in front of the registration lady when i'm in a bad mood. "i don't want morning classes, you idiot! can't you do anything right!?" i'd probably get kicked out.

but if i eat now, i'll be disappointing my scale, who's been there for me for a long time. through thick and thin.  she'll remind me of it for the rest of the week.

i'm not really hungry i guess. (am i typing all this just so i don't eat? gosh.) but then, i'm never really hungry.

curses.

what's a girl to do? maybe it's an easy decision. i think i'm just horribly indecisive.

honestly.

4 comments:

a friend of ana said...

good luck making that decision... i am having trouble deciding if i should have some chicken broth for lunch or wait until dinner... oh the contemplations we have...
good luck getting great classes!!!
<3

crashxDburn said...

Aww... good luck with your water fast hun! I'm just finishing up day 8 and I'm optimistic about what's to come. I hope it isn't too difficult for you.

Bonjour Bones ! said...

Good luck to you. I'll be very interested to hear how your water fast goes (I'll be starting mine soon). (:

Christina said...

When ever you decide to start I hope it goes well for you. You can never really tell when your body will react or when the hunger pains will be at their worst so you just have to be careful and take it one day at a time.

xx

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